Life

Well it's been a pretty rough couple of days. In and out of hospital and dr's office. But all in all, life must go on. I do not wish what I went through on my worstest enemy. The physical pain alone is a killer. Emotionally I am fine because unlike some, I know the true meaning of a miscarriage and why it happens and how often it actually happens. What most people don't know is that it happens to every woman 1 in 4 pregnancies. The percentage could be higher because some women don't even know they've had one because they don't know they are even preggers.
My brother says at least Phil and I know we can get pregnant and it will happen when the time is right. My brother has a friend who has been trying for a year and no baby/pregnancy yet. I feel bad for that friend. But Tom is right, at least we know we can have children and there are no problems (that we know of, let's hope we don't have a second miscarriage, then we will have to go for testing or something). One thing I learned from this pregancy is that my blood type is A- which means if I ever am pregnant with a baby who has + blood, my body needs antibodies put in it so it doesn't reject the fetus or I give birth to a "blue baby".
I'll tell you what hurts the most, the disappointment everybody else feels. Me? I'm strong and will get through this. Everybody else is what weakens me. Some might say I have a soft heart but a strong hard head. But the next pregnancy will bring just as much joy to everyone and like Jack said, "imagine the excitment when that baby is actually born".
I'll keep you all posted and just know as soon as it's ok to try again, Phil is all over it! ha ha ha, he really wants to try again, so do I. I don't think he realized how exciting it was until it was too late. He's sad and ready to try the minute we can.
And thanks to everyone for their kind words and their concerns. I never knew so many people cared about us. Thanks guys! Love you lots.