One amazing week!

So It all began Friday morning at 6am. I was so excited it was friday and also my last day of work for two weeks. So with cell phone in hand, I decided to check my facebook via phone. I logged on and I had a friend request. I was thinking, "who could this be?" So i clicked on it and almost dropped my phone. Now most people have no idea who this person is, but when I went to Cali last year for Montessori Conference I met this man who was a speaker and he was a Montessori Music teacher (which is my interest and what I did at my old school, no time to do it at new school). His name is Frank Leto. Frank Leto ADDED ME ON FACEBOOK!!!! He is like a Raffi and Fred Penner. I have all his children CD's and my class LOVES him. I hear them walking around the classroom singing his songs I have played for them. It's a great feeling when they actually retain something you teach them!! So anyways, I was super excited. This year I didn't get to go to Cali and see him even though I was all signed up for his seminars, but nature took over and grounded me from flying (my miscarriage happened that night i was supposed to leave). So no Frank Leto for me. However, Cindy talked to him after one of the seminars and she video tapped him saying "Hi Jess, sorry you couldn't be here this year, but hello from California" oh my GOD! Then Cindy was walking through the vedors and his wife Pilar was talking to Cindy (she bought me a CD for the class) and his wife was "Yes I remember you two, she is short with dark hair" wow!!! So long story short, Frank Leto added me on facebook!
Next exciting thing? My aunt and I went to Burlington Mall to watch the olympic torch. While Jackie was in Oakville standing with Adam V, the rower, my aunt and I were standing there next to no other than MATT HAYES!! Now you can ask my mom and grandma, I LOVE HIM! it has been my goal the last 10 years to meet him! There he was right beside us. I called mom and was "mom we are standing next to Matt Hayes". Where is my camera? oh ya, at HOME!! boooo. So we followed him around for a bit before settling down in front of where the torch would be passing through (which we later somehow ended up 4 people deep, we went from first row to like fourth, how did we get pushed back? so annoying people are especially this holiday season. Anywho, before we got bumped back Matt Hayes came around and wished us a Merry Christmas personally!! woo hoo! Matt Hayes wished us, my aunt and I a merry christmas!!! My aunt talked to him but i was too shy to speak. I didn't want to sound like a star stuck teenager. ha ha ha.
So while we waited for the torch the anticipation was growing. Here comes some buses, but where is the torch? oh here it comes. Right when it passed us I got a bit teary eyed. I was so happy i got to experience this and felt so much Canadian Pride at that very moment. And that my friends is one of the best weeks of my life. My life is almost complete, just working on the last chapter (baby making time)!!!

Welcom BAck

Well it feels like forever that I have written here. Hope I haven't lost my readers interests. ha ha ha. Heather are you still out there reading? Nicole? Jack?
Well the Policelli's (Phil and I) had our first annual open house (Christmas one) and let me just say we had way too much food. People ate and ate but it didn't seem to make a dent in our servings. I didn't even cook the frozen apps. Who's coming over during the holidays to eat apps? Heather and Aaron I think you are over due for a visit!!
Funny thing happened yesterday. My dad went to the dentist for his bi annual cleaning. I guess our hygenist now takes your blood pressure. She told dad he has high blood pressure. ha ha ha. So Phil goes " does your family doctor clean your teeth?" So needless to say dad had to go to the dr's today after work. His blood pressure is only 10 points too high. Nothing a little weight loss can't cure. Now i'm on a mission to get him to eat right and healthy. Although he is a healthy eater (due to high colestoral problems), he just doesn't know portion control. Perhaps he should be the one eating off a small plate, not mom and I. also perhaps he shouldn't eat out of the pot/pan after he has already had two plates of food. Now this man should be on the biggest loser for the amount of food he eats. But he doesn't weigh 400 pounds. He's always had a high motabilism (damn him for not passing that gene down to his children, but thanks for the great teeth I have all cause of his genes). Anyways, i will try and make sure he doesn't eat tons after dinner.
That's really all that has been going on. Now we are getting ready for our first Christmas in our new house!!! Bring on the entire family here on Christmas day!!!

Life lessons

As you all are aware I am a very strong person and not much gets me down and when I'm down I bounce back up at carry on (at least that's what I think you guys think about me, I could be completely wrong). I've been thinking alot since this miscarriage. Not about the miscarriage persay, but all my life events up until now.
I feel I have been through hell and back over the past 10 years of my life. But my friends make me feel a whole lot better by telling me "I was so worried you weren't going to learn something from this situation". and that makes me feel better cause I was hoping I wasn't joking myself and that I have learned things.
The biggest lesson I learned was from my past relationship with "you know who" and how I was not going to be treated in my next relationship (which happened to be Phil). To this day I don't think people know the abuse I had to endure and I saw things and went through things people should never have had to deal with ever. Which sucks because those images are forever going to be in my head. I think you guys know what I'm talking about? This isn't a pity blog, I've just been thinking a lot lately. I just for once would like something to go smooth and easy in my life. It's incredibly frustrating. As I sit here and write this blog, I impatiently await trying for another baby again. I can't do that right away until for another month. So I guess I will just sit back and let life take me where it wants to go (eventhough it's incredibly hard). This is too deep, even for me ha ha ha. But I am having a moment. I'll have to write about something funny next time I log in.

Life

Well it's been a pretty rough couple of days. In and out of hospital and dr's office. But all in all, life must go on. I do not wish what I went through on my worstest enemy. The physical pain alone is a killer. Emotionally I am fine because unlike some, I know the true meaning of a miscarriage and why it happens and how often it actually happens. What most people don't know is that it happens to every woman 1 in 4 pregnancies. The percentage could be higher because some women don't even know they've had one because they don't know they are even preggers.
My brother says at least Phil and I know we can get pregnant and it will happen when the time is right. My brother has a friend who has been trying for a year and no baby/pregnancy yet. I feel bad for that friend. But Tom is right, at least we know we can have children and there are no problems (that we know of, let's hope we don't have a second miscarriage, then we will have to go for testing or something). One thing I learned from this pregancy is that my blood type is A- which means if I ever am pregnant with a baby who has + blood, my body needs antibodies put in it so it doesn't reject the fetus or I give birth to a "blue baby".
I'll tell you what hurts the most, the disappointment everybody else feels. Me? I'm strong and will get through this. Everybody else is what weakens me. Some might say I have a soft heart but a strong hard head. But the next pregnancy will bring just as much joy to everyone and like Jack said, "imagine the excitment when that baby is actually born".
I'll keep you all posted and just know as soon as it's ok to try again, Phil is all over it! ha ha ha, he really wants to try again, so do I. I don't think he realized how exciting it was until it was too late. He's sad and ready to try the minute we can.
And thanks to everyone for their kind words and their concerns. I never knew so many people cared about us. Thanks guys! Love you lots.

It's been a long time

Sorry I haven't blogged for awhile but things have been super busy since school started. Phil and I got our bedroom set yesterday. It looks AMAZING!! The Mennonites did a great job and I completely recommend them to anyone who is looking for furniture. They can do anything you want as long as you have drawings/pictures and measurements. Pics to follow on facebook! Dad and I were discussing how they new how to get to our house since they really shouldn't be using the internet. Dad asked them when they were leaving and low and behold they have GPS!! can you believe it? We laughed and thought it was so funny. Dad says "guess I was wrong". He thought they used the internet. ha ha ha.
You must keep checking on because Phil and I are going to be on quite the adventure in the year to come! I just have to wait until things get sorted out. he he he!

All Settled In

Well, it's been a few weeks now and Phil and I have done so much to our new home. You wouldn't believe how different it looks from when we first turned the keys. We have painted two rooms and the hallway and I'm not bias but I think it looks amazing!!
We've had many visitors pass through our doors. The little vistors are the best!! (No offense adults)
The other day Annie and Sofia came for lunch and a swim. Now as you all have probably guessed, I love that little girl like she was my own. I see her once a week (since she was born a year ago, Happy Birthday baby girl). I was thinking about her the other day. I think the reason I am so close with her is i saw her while she was in the hospital and continue to see her once a week. When she was here, I fed her chicken for the first time. Annie was having a heart attack and was scared she was going to choke. But she did great. After she took it from my hand she'd give us a little giggle and it was a "look at me i'm eating your food" giggle. She was so proud of herself. It was so cute. It's moments like that that make me melt. I'm also very close with Aidan (Alicia's oldest) and it's due to me seeing him once a week as well. I am so excited to be looking after Sofia every wednesday after school, I can't wait!! Anyways, I just felt like writing about Sofia cause she is just so damn cute.
I l ove all my little kiddies all for different reasons. The other day Daniella, Phil's god daughter (and her parents and Dante) was over and oh man, she was too funny. She followed me and tom around. I can't believe she is almost 5. I think back to when I met her, she was only like 20 months or so and now she's starting kindergarten.
Aidan and Taylor are Alicia's babies. Taylor is GORGEOUS and is going to totally break a lot of hearts. Aidan is so funny. He called me the other day to ask if he could come over. Then when he got here, he climbed up the stairs like a baby and turned to Sofia and said, "like that Sophie" ha ha ha it was so cute.
I don't really see tina's babies anymore. But she has Abraham and Emmanuel (I think that's how you spell it)
Anyways, enough about babies. Next blog will be more entertaining. I start school/work in a couple of weeks, and am actually looking forward to it. I'll get there and then start count the days down till Christmas break, ha ha ha. Bill already said, "soon it's christmas break". ha ha ha.
Well my fingers are tired of typing. Good night you all. ha ha ha, i will not say ya'll.

Married Life can Officially begin

Officially tomorrow at around 3pm, our married lives will begin! I know we have been married since May 9th, however we haven't been living so to speak as a married couple with our own house. I have been living in a house that isn't mine nor Phil's and to me it was very stressful. Only for the fact that I couldn't decorate, i couldn't change anything since we weren't living in our own place. So look out!! Tomorrow a whole new part of our lives begins! To start our day we are going to St Jacobs to talk to the mennonite people about our furniture. Picture this, we go to the furniture store (not the Mennonites place, but a box store) and dad brings his trusty tape measure and Phil takes control of the camera. Dad sits down on the ottoman for sale and starts making diagrams and drafts a duplicate of our bedroom set full with measurements of every nook and cranny! Mom and I took off and looked around the store, we were scared of getting caught. So about after an hour, we took our scetch book and headed off to Kim's (Tom's gf) birthday party. Needless to say no one in the store said anything to them, or so those two claim. At one point mom and I say a salesperson walk away with their papers. Phil said he was going to check the price of the wardrobe ha ha ha. I was, "ya right you got it confinscated" But he brought it back.
A little word of advice, if you are looking for any furniture and want it quality made for a very low price, I really recommend going to St Jacobs and having the real professionals (Mennonites) do it! They actually take pride over what they produce. And turns out, at the big box store we were at, the furniture wasn't even made of real wood, it was made from cherry veneres. So fake wood. And yet they charged 6500 plus tax for three pieces of furniture. Our furniture is real Oak and half the price for three pieces!