Patrick Swayze, I had the Time of my Life! (Cole's Notes version)

So one of my gifts from Phil was Patrick Swayze's autobiography (which i was told means he wrote it) ha ha ha. So in conversation Jackie and I keep talking about coincendences. We are both all about things happening for reasons and what have you. Well I started reading my Patrick Swayze book and almost had to put it away for a bit because it was just too sad for me (and I was only on the prologue). He discribed how he found out he had cancer and the first signs he felt. Then through reading, we have many simularites (or as Jackie would say, he has lots of simularities with my dad). Anyways, his dad's name was Jesse (just like me)! My dad was born, Aug 21st 1952, and Patrick was born Aug 18th, 1952. My parents got married June 22, 1974 and Patrick and Lisa got married June 12th, 1975. Patrick also worked at a hockey arena, just like me!! It's like we were meant to be...ha ha ha.
On a serious note, it's a very good book and I will give you the coles notes on it as I get farther and farther along.

A year in Review!!

Wow, where do i begin? Thank goodness I didn't title this "A decade in review". Well, it was a very busy year with many ups and downs. In Jan of 2009, we were planning a wedding, a honeymoon and worrying about a house. May 2009, I got married and had the best time of my friggin' life. I will never ever forget that night for as long as i live. That whole night was every thing I had ever wanted in life/a wedding. It makes me smile when my friends and family say things like "yup, that was totally a Jess wedding" or that it reminded them of me and Phil. Then Phil and I went on our honeymoon to Barbados (I should probably get those photos developed). Then we came back and the house hunt became very serious. Two weeks after we got back we found our dream house. In such a short time we transformed this pink and brown house to how we wanted it. It still needs lots of work (like paint and decorations) but that will come in time. Then right away I became pregnant only to find out at week 12 that the baby stopped growing at 6.5 weeks. That was horrible and I never want anyone to have to experiance that ever!! We had our first Christmas in our new house and we have been busy entertaining a few people here and there. Christmas was a great success at the Policelli house and New Years Eve was a night we will be talking about for a while (at my expense mind you). I'd like to forget that evening but people keep bringing it up. ha ha ha. So when I look back at the year in review, all i can think of is "what a year it was". I hope this year is even bigger and better than the last. Our lives have only just started to begin.
Keep checking back here people because I have learned a lot of things from reading Patrick Swayze's biography that I am dying to share with you ALL!!!

One amazing week!

So It all began Friday morning at 6am. I was so excited it was friday and also my last day of work for two weeks. So with cell phone in hand, I decided to check my facebook via phone. I logged on and I had a friend request. I was thinking, "who could this be?" So i clicked on it and almost dropped my phone. Now most people have no idea who this person is, but when I went to Cali last year for Montessori Conference I met this man who was a speaker and he was a Montessori Music teacher (which is my interest and what I did at my old school, no time to do it at new school). His name is Frank Leto. Frank Leto ADDED ME ON FACEBOOK!!!! He is like a Raffi and Fred Penner. I have all his children CD's and my class LOVES him. I hear them walking around the classroom singing his songs I have played for them. It's a great feeling when they actually retain something you teach them!! So anyways, I was super excited. This year I didn't get to go to Cali and see him even though I was all signed up for his seminars, but nature took over and grounded me from flying (my miscarriage happened that night i was supposed to leave). So no Frank Leto for me. However, Cindy talked to him after one of the seminars and she video tapped him saying "Hi Jess, sorry you couldn't be here this year, but hello from California" oh my GOD! Then Cindy was walking through the vedors and his wife Pilar was talking to Cindy (she bought me a CD for the class) and his wife was "Yes I remember you two, she is short with dark hair" wow!!! So long story short, Frank Leto added me on facebook!
Next exciting thing? My aunt and I went to Burlington Mall to watch the olympic torch. While Jackie was in Oakville standing with Adam V, the rower, my aunt and I were standing there next to no other than MATT HAYES!! Now you can ask my mom and grandma, I LOVE HIM! it has been my goal the last 10 years to meet him! There he was right beside us. I called mom and was "mom we are standing next to Matt Hayes". Where is my camera? oh ya, at HOME!! boooo. So we followed him around for a bit before settling down in front of where the torch would be passing through (which we later somehow ended up 4 people deep, we went from first row to like fourth, how did we get pushed back? so annoying people are especially this holiday season. Anywho, before we got bumped back Matt Hayes came around and wished us a Merry Christmas personally!! woo hoo! Matt Hayes wished us, my aunt and I a merry christmas!!! My aunt talked to him but i was too shy to speak. I didn't want to sound like a star stuck teenager. ha ha ha.
So while we waited for the torch the anticipation was growing. Here comes some buses, but where is the torch? oh here it comes. Right when it passed us I got a bit teary eyed. I was so happy i got to experience this and felt so much Canadian Pride at that very moment. And that my friends is one of the best weeks of my life. My life is almost complete, just working on the last chapter (baby making time)!!!

Welcom BAck

Well it feels like forever that I have written here. Hope I haven't lost my readers interests. ha ha ha. Heather are you still out there reading? Nicole? Jack?
Well the Policelli's (Phil and I) had our first annual open house (Christmas one) and let me just say we had way too much food. People ate and ate but it didn't seem to make a dent in our servings. I didn't even cook the frozen apps. Who's coming over during the holidays to eat apps? Heather and Aaron I think you are over due for a visit!!
Funny thing happened yesterday. My dad went to the dentist for his bi annual cleaning. I guess our hygenist now takes your blood pressure. She told dad he has high blood pressure. ha ha ha. So Phil goes " does your family doctor clean your teeth?" So needless to say dad had to go to the dr's today after work. His blood pressure is only 10 points too high. Nothing a little weight loss can't cure. Now i'm on a mission to get him to eat right and healthy. Although he is a healthy eater (due to high colestoral problems), he just doesn't know portion control. Perhaps he should be the one eating off a small plate, not mom and I. also perhaps he shouldn't eat out of the pot/pan after he has already had two plates of food. Now this man should be on the biggest loser for the amount of food he eats. But he doesn't weigh 400 pounds. He's always had a high motabilism (damn him for not passing that gene down to his children, but thanks for the great teeth I have all cause of his genes). Anyways, i will try and make sure he doesn't eat tons after dinner.
That's really all that has been going on. Now we are getting ready for our first Christmas in our new house!!! Bring on the entire family here on Christmas day!!!

Life lessons

As you all are aware I am a very strong person and not much gets me down and when I'm down I bounce back up at carry on (at least that's what I think you guys think about me, I could be completely wrong). I've been thinking alot since this miscarriage. Not about the miscarriage persay, but all my life events up until now.
I feel I have been through hell and back over the past 10 years of my life. But my friends make me feel a whole lot better by telling me "I was so worried you weren't going to learn something from this situation". and that makes me feel better cause I was hoping I wasn't joking myself and that I have learned things.
The biggest lesson I learned was from my past relationship with "you know who" and how I was not going to be treated in my next relationship (which happened to be Phil). To this day I don't think people know the abuse I had to endure and I saw things and went through things people should never have had to deal with ever. Which sucks because those images are forever going to be in my head. I think you guys know what I'm talking about? This isn't a pity blog, I've just been thinking a lot lately. I just for once would like something to go smooth and easy in my life. It's incredibly frustrating. As I sit here and write this blog, I impatiently await trying for another baby again. I can't do that right away until for another month. So I guess I will just sit back and let life take me where it wants to go (eventhough it's incredibly hard). This is too deep, even for me ha ha ha. But I am having a moment. I'll have to write about something funny next time I log in.

Life

Well it's been a pretty rough couple of days. In and out of hospital and dr's office. But all in all, life must go on. I do not wish what I went through on my worstest enemy. The physical pain alone is a killer. Emotionally I am fine because unlike some, I know the true meaning of a miscarriage and why it happens and how often it actually happens. What most people don't know is that it happens to every woman 1 in 4 pregnancies. The percentage could be higher because some women don't even know they've had one because they don't know they are even preggers.
My brother says at least Phil and I know we can get pregnant and it will happen when the time is right. My brother has a friend who has been trying for a year and no baby/pregnancy yet. I feel bad for that friend. But Tom is right, at least we know we can have children and there are no problems (that we know of, let's hope we don't have a second miscarriage, then we will have to go for testing or something). One thing I learned from this pregancy is that my blood type is A- which means if I ever am pregnant with a baby who has + blood, my body needs antibodies put in it so it doesn't reject the fetus or I give birth to a "blue baby".
I'll tell you what hurts the most, the disappointment everybody else feels. Me? I'm strong and will get through this. Everybody else is what weakens me. Some might say I have a soft heart but a strong hard head. But the next pregnancy will bring just as much joy to everyone and like Jack said, "imagine the excitment when that baby is actually born".
I'll keep you all posted and just know as soon as it's ok to try again, Phil is all over it! ha ha ha, he really wants to try again, so do I. I don't think he realized how exciting it was until it was too late. He's sad and ready to try the minute we can.
And thanks to everyone for their kind words and their concerns. I never knew so many people cared about us. Thanks guys! Love you lots.

It's been a long time

Sorry I haven't blogged for awhile but things have been super busy since school started. Phil and I got our bedroom set yesterday. It looks AMAZING!! The Mennonites did a great job and I completely recommend them to anyone who is looking for furniture. They can do anything you want as long as you have drawings/pictures and measurements. Pics to follow on facebook! Dad and I were discussing how they new how to get to our house since they really shouldn't be using the internet. Dad asked them when they were leaving and low and behold they have GPS!! can you believe it? We laughed and thought it was so funny. Dad says "guess I was wrong". He thought they used the internet. ha ha ha.
You must keep checking on because Phil and I are going to be on quite the adventure in the year to come! I just have to wait until things get sorted out. he he he!